[ the shock of not finding johnny anywhere, of finding his things gone from lucy isn't quite outweighed by the shock of finding herself on another ship in a part of the universe that dutch doesn't recognise at all, but it distracts from it. except it seems that johnny is here, too, and all the questions dutch had, the worries and the creeping sense of betrayal are all rushing back, not lessened by the anger about her current displacement in any way. ]
johnny?
id: cptapex (tags this very aggressively, 10 days later)
[ There are really only 2 options for an ID like that, and it takes half a minute for him to dig into her profile. Longer to reply, though the delay still manages to be somewhere in the range of normal. ]
Hi Dutch. You know, you'd think I'd know how to find the bathrooms at Pree's by now, but I guess I'm not the only one who took a wrong turn.
[ she would have left the quad with him. she would have ridden shotgun on any quest, she would've run with him. she told him that. so he must mean space from her, too, but dutch forces the hurt as far down as she can.
[ Of course she assumes that, because it makes sense. It makes sense if she doesn't know the whole story, anyway. If she knew about Delle Seyah, there's no way she'd have gotten two messages in without making it clear. ]
No, Dutch. Not from you.
[ But sort of from her. If she'd known what he was going to do, she might've helped. After a small pause: ]
[ she would have helped. of course she would have. it's been johnny and her against the world for so long; he's been there for her for five years now. she would've gladly returned the favour, if he'd let her.
but news of delle seyah's death hadn't made it across westerley yet by the time the anomaly had dragged dutch here. ]
i'm glad you're here, too
[ complicated. when did that become their lives? ]
[ Keeping it a secret long-term was never part of the equation. Dutch will work it out as soon as she's got all the pieces. Him being a few systems away when did wasn't about avoiding that conversation, but here—
She won't know unless he tells her, and he isn't entirely what to do with that. The whole point had been keeping her out of the crossfire, and that isn't a problem here — which means not telling her is just selfish, or avoidant.
Or too complicated. New subject. ]
How are you holding up? Any thoughts on our mysterious new overlords?
[ there's more to be said about this. he left without so much as a goodbye, khlyen and pawter are dead, war might not be coming to the quad but it's coming and he left.
dutch knows how not to talk about things that matter. ]
they keep saying they have no control over the anomaly not sure i believe them and we're not calling them overlords
[ while dutch is still kind of angry with johnny (it's complicated), that won't ever stop her from checking in with him. or from calling him ridiculous names. ]
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08-02 / id: killjoy
johnny?
id: cptapex (tags this very aggressively, 10 days later)
Hi Dutch. You know, you'd think I'd know how to find the bathrooms at Pree's by now, but I guess I'm not the only one who took a wrong turn.
How long?
THAT ID THO
long enough
they didn't give me enough time to pack a bag before i took that wrong turn
he's cool
I needed some space.
[ He considers typing "I was going to come back", which is mostly true. But he isn't sure how true, and silence seems preferable to more bullshit. ]
This isn't exactly what I had in mind, but I guess it technically counts. D'av isn't here, is he?
the coolest
[ she would have left the quad with him. she would have ridden shotgun on any quest, she would've run with him. she told him that. so he must mean space from her, too, but dutch forces the hurt as far down as she can.
he just lost pawter. ]
i'll stay on one side of the ship
no subject
No, Dutch. Not from you.
[ But sort of from her. If she'd known what he was going to do, she might've helped. After a small pause: ]
It's complicated. But I'm still glad you're here.
no subject
but news of delle seyah's death hadn't made it across westerley yet by the time the anomaly had dragged dutch here. ]
i'm glad you're here, too
[ complicated. when did that become their lives? ]
no subject
She won't know unless he tells her, and he isn't entirely what to do with that. The whole point had been keeping her out of the crossfire, and that isn't a problem here — which means not telling her is just selfish, or avoidant.
Or too complicated. New subject. ]
How are you holding up? Any thoughts on our mysterious new overlords?
no subject
dutch knows how not to talk about things that matter. ]
they keep saying they have no control over the anomaly
not sure i believe them
and we're not calling them overlords
14-02 / id: killjoy
[ while dutch is still kind of angry with johnny (it's complicated), that won't ever stop her from checking in with him. or from calling him ridiculous names. ]
where are you?